I'd like to ask for your prayers for Sunday night as eight of my closest friends and Christian sisters come together. We are having a Celebration of Life and Sisterhood.
Three weeks ago tomorrow we had a miscarriage and exactly a week later God put this idea on my heart. That Saturday was the worst day I had, just overwhelmed with emotions, feelings of depression and in a constant state of sadness.
My husband recognized my need to just be alone, so as he put the kids to bed, I found time to be quiet and talk with God. All day I knew I had let my thoughts run, which had caused me to fall even farther down than the circumstances had already pushed me. Anyway I asked God to help me take my thoughts captive and see good in what seemed so bad.
He answered that prayer and gave me the idea of a celebration. All day I had struggled with the fact that some people hadn't even recognized the loss of our child's life and that hurt. I knew we wouldn't be having a funeral, but still God impressed on me that that didn't have to mean we couldn't celebrate this life.
This child may have only been here for 6 and a half weeks, but God worked thru him or her and taught me things thru this little one that He never will thru my other 3. Though it's been hard I am grateful. That night in the midst of my sadness, it was like He told me to celebrate the life of this child - my baby is important to me, but is even more loved by God, our Father.
The thoughts didn't end there as He reminded me of another reason of celebration - my sisters in Christ. Eight people instantly came to mind who had carried me thru the week that had led to this point. I know they were all praying for me, some had brought meals, others watched our kids, some shared their story and strength, they all had listened, some just sat, hugged and cried. Whatever they had done was important and after these 7 days I had a whole new appreciation for this circle of friends.
Now in the two weeks that passed since that night, God is conintuing to teach me, comfort me and guide me while my circle of friends surround me, lift me up and help me focus on Him. And at the same time He's already using this hard time from my life to help me minister to others as one of my friends is twelve days behind me on her walk thru a miscarriage.
So we not only celebrate the life of my child, but my friends as well. I'm not sure how this night of celebration will look or what it will hold, but I trust God put it on my heart, so I know it's in His hands. On the invite cards I said it was a night for healing and prayer along with sharing and praise, so I pray that will happen and we'll all be blessed and He will be glorified.