Thursday, September 18, 2008

We're having a celebration

I'd like to ask for your prayers for Sunday night as eight of my closest friends and Christian sisters come together. We are having a Celebration of Life and Sisterhood.

Three weeks ago tomorrow we had a miscarriage and exactly a week later God put this idea on my heart. That Saturday was the worst day I had, just overwhelmed with emotions, feelings of depression and in a constant state of sadness.

My husband recognized my need to just be alone, so as he put the kids to bed, I found time to be quiet and talk with God. All day I knew I had let my thoughts run, which had caused me to fall even farther down than the circumstances had already pushed me. Anyway I asked God to help me take my thoughts captive and see good in what seemed so bad.

He answered that prayer and gave me the idea of a celebration. All day I had struggled with the fact that some people hadn't even recognized the loss of our child's life and that hurt. I knew we wouldn't be having a funeral, but still God impressed on me that that didn't have to mean we couldn't celebrate this life.

This child may have only been here for 6 and a half weeks, but God worked thru him or her and taught me things thru this little one that He never will thru my other 3. Though it's been hard I am grateful. That night in the midst of my sadness, it was like He told me to celebrate the life of this child - my baby is important to me, but is even more loved by God, our Father.

The thoughts didn't end there as He reminded me of another reason of celebration - my sisters in Christ. Eight people instantly came to mind who had carried me thru the week that had led to this point. I know they were all praying for me, some had brought meals, others watched our kids, some shared their story and strength, they all had listened, some just sat, hugged and cried. Whatever they had done was important and after these 7 days I had a whole new appreciation for this circle of friends.

Now in the two weeks that passed since that night, God is conintuing to teach me, comfort me and guide me while my circle of friends surround me, lift me up and help me focus on Him. And at the same time He's already using this hard time from my life to help me minister to others as one of my friends is twelve days behind me on her walk thru a miscarriage.

So we not only celebrate the life of my child, but my friends as well. I'm not sure how this night of celebration will look or what it will hold, but I trust God put it on my heart, so I know it's in His hands. On the invite cards I said it was a night for healing and prayer along with sharing and praise, so I pray that will happen and we'll all be blessed and He will be glorified.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi! I've popped over from Lelia's and wanted to say "Hello" and wish you a a blessed night in celebration of life and love... I've experienced the pain and the emotional confusion you have expressed and I'm grateful for the way in which you have expressed it in these post I've read tonight. Bless your heart... Naomi

RefreshMom said...

What a beautiful idea. I pray the evening really will be a time of praise and blessing for you.

Pamela (His maidservant) said...

I wish I could be there celebrating with you!! what a splendid idea!! Blessings to you all!

In His Graces~Pamela

Yolanda said...

Jill,

May God bring a MIGHTY HEALING to your heart this evening. We, as grandparents, are in the same situation as our son & his family lost their little one about 6 weeks in also two weeks ago. God is good and He loves this child so much....just as much as He loves your child. We both know, Jesus loves the little children.

Who wouldn't? :0)

I am praying for you and I praise Him in this storm.


Love,
Yolanda

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LynnSC said...

What an awesome idea Jill. I know that it will not only mean something to you and your friend that have walked the same path, but to your other sisters in Christ as well.

I can remember the day after my last miscarriage... the nurse from the surgery center called to check on me. When she asked me how I was doing after my procedure the day before, I told her that I had gotten up that morning and started to have a pity-party. I told her that God impressed upon my heart that I could CHOOSE to praise Him instead... So I was actually dancing, singing, and praising God. She said, "well, I have never gotten that answer before."

I wonder how often she pondered that answer that day. I don't think for one moment that God had me doing that... for that nurse to call me... and for me to give her that answer for nothing.

God will use your celebration for His glory. Thanks so much for sharing this with us.
Lynn

Lelia Chealey said...

Jill, this is a beautiful idea. I love how tender hearted our God is. And I love how your heart is one like Joshua's and is obedient to celebrate like He wants you to.
Wow!