Monday, September 8, 2008

His Ways...

Over the past 10 days God has amazed me. The week that passed was quite unique and something I pray I never experience again, but in the dark times it was comforting to know God's promises are real.

He is there, we (I) simply have to recognize Him, seek Him, reach out to Him and let Him carry my burden. Not always the easy thing to do, but obviously the right thing and in the end the best thing.

I have always had an analytical mind, enjoying math as a student and challenging my students with logic as a teacher, but I have yet to figure life out. This past week convinced me I never will!!

A week after experiencing a miscarriage, I hear a guess musician at our church say, "God's will is never bad." Though I was in the midst of the most painful experience of my life, I had to agree. Was it fun? "NO!" Was it hard? "YES!"

Thru all of this though, the hurt, the tears, the anger, the emptiness, the loss, the misunderstanding, the questions, God's intentions are not bad.

I don't know why this has happened and honestly I've given up trying to figure it out, but I know and trust God is at work. He's already proven that with Him I can walk thru something I never thought I could. He's revealed how critical my circle of Christian friends really are. He has drawn me closer to Himself and that is good.

His ways are not my ways, but He has a for a future and a hope.


  1. Your strength amazes me. It's such a testament to what God has done and is doing in your life and walk with Him. I will continue to pray for His peace and love to surround you and heal your pain and grief.
    You are indeed a wonderful inspiration to me!

  2. Hi Jill,

    Your comment on my blog touched my heart. My momma heart hurts for you as you grieve the loss of your precious baby. I pray that the hugs and kisses of your other children will remind you everyday of God's love as Your heavenly father. You are right; God's will is never bad. I firmly believe He only allows His children to suffer pain if the purpose for the pain outweighs the pain itself. I pray that Lord will continue to sustain you during this painful time and that He will use you to encourage and minister to others. You ministered to me. I hope to visit with you again. Blessings and hugs, Lee, an AZ sister

  3. Thanks for visiting my blog and for your encouragement.

    You're right, we can't always understand God's ways, but when we can't see His Hand we can trust His heart.

    So sorry for all you've experienced. Praying God will hold you and be your comfort.