Over the past 10 days God has amazed me. The week that passed was quite unique and something I pray I never experience again, but in the dark times it was comforting to know God's promises are real.
He is there, we (I) simply have to recognize Him, seek Him, reach out to Him and let Him carry my burden. Not always the easy thing to do, but obviously the right thing and in the end the best thing.
I have always had an analytical mind, enjoying math as a student and challenging my students with logic as a teacher, but I have yet to figure life out. This past week convinced me I never will!!
A week after experiencing a miscarriage, I hear a guess musician at our church say, "God's will is never bad." Though I was in the midst of the most painful experience of my life, I had to agree. Was it fun? "NO!" Was it hard? "YES!"
Thru all of this though, the hurt, the tears, the anger, the emptiness, the loss, the misunderstanding, the questions, God's intentions are not bad.
I don't know why this has happened and honestly I've given up trying to figure it out, but I know and trust God is at work. He's already proven that with Him I can walk thru something I never thought I could. He's revealed how critical my circle of Christian friends really are. He has drawn me closer to Himself and that is good.
His ways are not my ways, but He has a plan...one for a future and a hope.