The other night our roaming 2 year old climbed into bed with us, got herself settled in and sweetly said, "Me wanna dwink." Now with a newborn, who's cry wakes me up with a similar demand and the fact that it is cold outside of the covers I honestly was tempted to stay in bed.
But I had already been awake, thinking and spending some time in prayer before Jaylyn made her presence known. I myself was sharing some concerns, needs and wants with my Father. When she did the same with me, I looked at her in the darkness of the night with my selfish thoughts of Jaylyn just go to sleep when I instantly remembered, "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone?"
I'm thinking I could easily substitute a daughter asking for a drink and giving her nothing. It was like God impressed on my heart, Jill give to your child and I will provide for mine as well. So I got out from under the warmth of my covers, risked waking my sleeping son (and husband for that matter:) and went to get my daughter a drink.
She had her drink and was back to sleep, but me on the other hand, I was thirsty for more. My mind returned to thoughts I'd had before this interruption - I too had been asking God for some things - wisdom, guidance, direction, confirmation, supplication... I wondered what He was going to give me.
Unlike my daughter the answer didn't come immediately, actually days later I'm still waiting. Thoughts continued though - just because I had given my daughter what she wanted that didn't mean God would do the same.
I recalled some of Jaylyn's other "wanna crys" and my response wasn't always immediate or exact. Had she wanted juice in the middle of the night - it wouldn't have happened. The recent wants on the older kids Christmas list were not all fulfilled either, my job as a parent is to be discernful and determine what they need. At times it is what they want and others well not so much.
As I thought of this and the prayers I had just prayed, I surrendered my wants to my Father. If He's trusted me to take care of my children, I know He will do the same for me. Matthew 7:11 says it best, "If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!"