Last night an hour after posting about the things I tell myself I was put to the test and I'm sorry to say for awhile I failed!!
As my night was coming to an end, my mind took over. After spending time with a loved one who is upset with and doesn't understand my obedience to God and desire to share, I recalled things that had been said and started hearing negative talk from days gone by. Then I proceeded to brush my teeth and caught a glimpse in the mirror when more words from the past reappeared. Plans are being made to take the photo that will be on the back of my book and as I looked at myself I heard, "You can't put your picture on a book. Your teeth are crooked. Your hair's a mess..." So by this time I was down and the ball continued to roll as other thoughts came to mind.
Finally, things paused and I thought of the chapter I had just read and wrote about - my exact words were, "I'm eager to leave the negative self talk behind and replace it with powerful soul talk that comes from God's word instead of my mind!" And for a minute, my old ways came to life as I heard, "You've failed again." Thankfully I was able to counter that with His words of truth.
Though I can't quote exact verses God gave me a truth for every lie I had been telling myself. I recalled how the Bible tells us those without faith can't understand and then he reminded me how I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Even though I've struggled with my looks since my days as a tomboy, God created me and loves me just the way I am. The conversation continued and I was blessed by the new articles that He was putting into my thought closet.
And though I initially failed the test, I'm grateful that God is a God of second chances! I left a comment yesterday telling Lelia how we need to trust (I think the reminder was for me!!). As we move forward with the study I trust God has plans for good!!