Last week was my birthday and for the first time in 34 years I honestly felt like I was getting older! I suppose 4 children will eventually do that to a person! As I thought about this, my mind took the next step - if I'm a year older, shouldn't I be a year wiser?
I'm sorry to say I wasn't as quick or confidant with an affirmative answer to that question. Lately it seems I've unintentionally fallen into some old habits - primarily doubting when I should trust and worrying about other's approval rather than focusing on God's!! When I realized this I felt more like someone turning 3 or 4, not one with the 3 in the ten's place!
I look back at my life, even in just the year that has passed, and I know God is faithful and worthy of my trust. I also know seeking the approval of anyone aside from God is simply setting myself up for failure, so why do I do it? Like I said, my body and mind get the older part that comes with another birthday, it's the wiser part I'm not so sure about.
Needless to say I wasn't surprised when our Sunday school lesson for the week was from Proverbs - one that specifically contrasted the fool's walk with that of the wise. I know the fool's walk is one I want to avoid, which means the only other option is walking in wisdom.
To do this I must remember this is a walk that will never end - though birthdays will come and go there will never be a magic age when I receive a gift full of wisdom guaranteed to get me through. No, this is something I must constantly seek and sometimes it will be found as I walk along this path of life.
Now a few days into this new year of my life, I believe God is making me wiser as He reminds me it's not just about seeking wisdom and even asking Him for it, it's more than that - I must receive it and then comes the hard part - apply it!
I'm looking forward to the year ahead - chances are a year from now I'll feel even older (my baby will be walking!! - which means I'll be running!!), but I also believe God will bless me with wisdom too!