When you feel unworthy...

Have you ever felt unworthy? Me too. Just the other day actually. I really wasn't surprised because I'm actually preparing to speak about our worth in Christ and every time before I speak, I'm given opportunities to live the message I will share.

Friends, many things can leave us feeling unworthy - things we've done, things that have been done to us, words said, others left unsaid, opportunities missed, mistakes made and sin committed. As a basketball coach, I often said, "When you lose you should feel bad." As Christians I believe we could say something quite similar, "When you sin you should feed bad." As followers of Christ, we have the Holy Spirit in us and have the ability to know right from wrong, but yet sometimes we make the wrong choice...we sin. Sinning grieves our Father and if we truly love Him, we should feel bad when we hurt Him.

Sometimes feelings of unworthiness are part of the bad emotions we experience. Sometimes we feel unworthy because of our own actions. Sometimes feelings of unworthiness are warranted, but on the other hand sometimes they are not. There are often times we feel unworthy because of someone else or Satan himself.

Today I don't want to focus on the why of feeling unworthy, but instead the what. When we feel unworthy, what are we to do? I believe we can take a powerful and important lesson from Luke 15:11-24, the story of the prodigal son.

In this familiar story we have the account of two brothers...the younger one doesn't want to wait for his inheritance and asks his father to give it to him. His dad does and he sets out to live the life he dreamed of. Perhaps for awhile things go as planned, but eventually the money runs out, the fun ends and life gets hard. Things did not go as expected and he finds himself eating with the pigs. He then realizes his father's servants are living a life better than his.

In verse 18 our lesson begins; the young man thinks, "I will get up and go to my father, and will say to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me as one of your hired men.'" This young man had made mistakes and chances are committed some sin, but take note of what he did - he returned to the one he had hurt, the one who'd loved him. Notice the word he uses to describe himself - unworthy. He felt he had no value.

He didn't just think about going to his father, he did it. Verse 21 tells us, "And the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son.'" The son confesses his sin and shares his feelings with his father. He does not feel worthy, but verses 22-24 paint a powerful picture. "But the father said to his slaves, 'Quickly bring out the best robe and put in on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet; and bring the fattened calf, kill it, and let us eat and celebrate; for this son of mine was dead and come to life again; he was lost and has been found.' And they began to celebrate." Friends, this father loved his son - feelings of unworthiness, warranted or not, were not going to keep him from him.

Oh how I've been reminded that the same is true of my heavenly Father and me. And for you and Him too. He loves us and does not want us, the ones He created, has a plan for and considers His masterpiece to feel unworthy. In the moments when those feelings are warranted He longs for us to come to Him and confess our sin just like the prodigal son. And when those feelings surface because we don't measure up or we allow others to define our worth, He wants us to run to Him so He can remind us of the value we have in His eyes and kingdom.

Friend, if you feel unworthy may you remember -

You are created in the image of our great God! "So God created mankind in His own image, in the image of God He created them, male and female He created them." (Genesis 1:27) 

You have the spirit in you! "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me." (Galatians 2:20a)

You have been bought at a price. "For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you for your ancestors, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect." (1 Peter 1:18-19)

God doesn't measure worth like the world does - it's all about our love for Him and obedience to Him. "Anyone who loves their father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. Whoever does not take up their cross and follow Me is not worthy of Me." (Matthew 10:37-38)

Dear Heavenly Father, 
I'm grateful that Jesus is the worthy One. Thank you for sending Him to take my place. Lord, when I feel unworthy, just like the prodigal son did remind me to come to You. Help me cast my cares on You knowing You care for me. Lord, I ask for a better understanding of who I am in your eyes. May I allow You and You alone to define me. Fill me with confidence to be who You created me to be and help me walk in a manner worthy of the calling You've given me. And Lord, I ask you to be with my friends reading this today, may they know the love You have for them and the value You see in them. In Jesus' Name, Amen

Someone's Watching

Picking rock is something I shared about in my last post (you can read it HERE) and today as I spent more time in the field, God reminded me of another important Truth. Someone is watching! As my kids and I made trips up and down the field, we attempted to pick up every rock that was there. Like I said before, picking rock is a time consuming job that takes effort and attention...two things that can disappear quickly after a few days of the monotonous work.

So today, as we worked our environment was a bit different. My husband, Job, was planting corn in the same field. We were just a bit ahead of him and as I glanced behind me and saw him coming I had a thought - "If we missed any rocks, he's going to see them." With him sitting high up in the tractor with a a view of everything, there was no way to avoid him seeing our mistakes.

As this thought came to mind, it was quickly followed by another...Job's not the only one watching me, God is too. Unlike my husband, He has perfect vision and isn't distracted by the planter he's pulling. Scripture reminds us again and again of this Truth - 

"The eyes of the LORD are everywhere, keeping watch on the wicked and the good." Proverbs 15:3

"My eyes are on all their ways; they are not hidden from me, nor is their sin concealed from my eyes." Jeremiah 16:17

"Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account." Hebrews 4:13

"For your ways are in full view of the LORD, and he examines all your paths." Proverbs 5:21

This new thought then brought to mind the last lesson God taught me in the field. God sees all the rocks I miss. He's aware of the ones you overlook too. These rocks aren't the hard, heavy ones we find in the field, but instead are the sins in our heart. God is aware of the bad attitudes, hurtful words and wrong motives we overlook. He also knows the "rocks" we see, but may avoid because we're lazy, tired or simply don't want to do the work it takes to pick them up. 

Friend, initially the fact that my husband was watching made me a bit nervous and worried. I found myself thinking we must get every rock! Then I was reminded of my husband's loving and forgiving heart...he knows the kids and me are human who will miss rocks. He's grateful we're helping him and appreciates the work we do. So if you're anxious when you think about God watching every move you make and being aware of every rock you miss...remember who HE is - our kind, loving, forgiving Father! 

As I thought about this, I went from worried to motivated. I wanted to do a good job for the one I love. Knowing God is watching me live the life He gave, I should want to do the best I can for Him. That thought coupled with Deuteronomy 6:18 fills me with passion and purpose...how about you??

"You shall do what is right and good in the sight of the Lord, that it may be well with you and that you may go in and possess the good land which the Lord swore to give your fathers..." Deuteronomy 6:18

A Lesson from the Field

Spring is in full swing on the farm here in Iowa, which means we have work to do. One of the jobs my kids and I have been doing is picking rock. For those of you unfamiliar with this line of work let me explain - some areas of farm ground are a bit rocky and when that's the case we have to remove the rocks. The purpose is two-fold - rocks can hinder growth and they can damage equipment. This is a job we have to do every year and sometimes we joke that perhaps we should raise rocks instead of corn!! The other day as I was out in the cool temps and blowing winds, God used my time in the field to teach me a lesson. My prayer is He will use it to teach you as well! 

That day in the field and now each time since, God has me thinking about removing rocks from the soil of my heart. Friend, we are sinners and will forever live with the temptation to feed our flesh. Because that is a reality, I truly believe this lesson from the field is good food for thought. So a few observations from the great outdoors that can help us improve our heart's soil condition.

First of all, I immediately noticed my little 5 year old eagerly running across the field to get the biggest rock he could find. This is not part of the method we use...we pick rock by going up and down the field, picking the rocks in our area knowing we'll get to all of them eventually. As I watched Jed run, I was reminded I need to deal with all the sin in my heart rather than running to the ones that are big and obvious. Or better yet - the ones that are easier to deal with.

Another lesson I learned was that sometimes we need help...picking rock is not a job you want to do alone. Friend, we often think dealing with sin is something we want to do all by ourselves, but in reality there is great power in numbers. Accountability is important and there is strength in numbers. My kids help each other as we pick rock...I love having my little Jaylyn in my Ranger as she is constantly encouraging me and letting me know I'm doing a good job.  Sometimes the kids see a rock someone else might not and can't we do the same as sisters when we walk in faith and remove the rock of sin from our heart? I think so. Let's pray and ask God to do it in a loving encouraging way just like my lil lady!

Along that same line, there are other things that help us pick rock...our skidloaders, Rangers, buckets and shovels. Friend, our Bibles, time in prayer and worship will help us as well!!

Another thing I realized was that sometimes the rocks are easy to see...they are above ground and out in the open, while other times they are hidden and can easily be overlooked. Sometimes a rock looks real small from a distance but then as you approach it or dig it out, you realize it's not what you thought. Isn't that true with sin? I'm guessing you're clearly aware of a sin in your life, but are there others that are hidden and harder to see? Are there some that seem small and make you think it's really not a big deal? Friend, sin is sin and we're not to enter in...perhaps we categorize it, but God doesn't!! My husband doesn't want rocks in the field and God doesn't want them in our heart!! No matter the size!!

Once as I walked to pick up one rock, I spotted another farther away, so I walked on to it planning to get the first one later. Well, when I turned around I lost sight of it and as I did God reminded me that happens with sin too. When we recognize sin in our heart, we must deal with it immediately because when we put it off we forget about it or start to overlook it.

Friend, I will admit picking rock was not a job I sought when I was a kid, but yet it's one I found myself doing every summer. I was for sure I'd NEVER do it as an adult! It's a job that has you out in the heat or cold, dusty conditions, leaves you dirty and tired...it's not that fun, but it serves a purpose. As a teen it brought good money and now as a Mom it gives me an opportunity to teach my kids and work with them while I help my husband. Friend, when we remove the rocks from our heart, the work is usually not fun, but it serves a purpose - one that is way more important than those I've listed above! It's worth it, so will you join me in doing it?

I've shared more than enough of my words, so let me close with some powerful ones from the Word - 

"Anyone then who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins." James 4:17

"He who conceals his sins doesn't not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy." Proverbs 28:13

"But if we walk in the light as He Himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." 1 John 1:7-9

"Also keep back your servant from presumptuous sins; let them not rule over me; then I will be blameless, and I shall be acquitted of great transgression. Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my rock and my Redeemer." Psalm 19:13-14

Dear Heavenly Father, Lord thank you for being a loving, kind, forgiving God. Help me be a daughter who recognizes my sin, deals with it and turns from it. Do not let sin rule over me...help me confess them and embrace your forgiveness as you remove them farther than the east is from the west. Thank you for the lessons you teach us in our ordinary lives...continue to open our ears and eyes while You tender our hearts to see, listen and receive all You have for us. Lord, remove the rocks from our heart so we can be fruitful for You! In Jesus' Name, Amen

"What do you raise them for?"

Over the last week, I've had a handful of people talk to me about how my kids are growing up. I know it's true...my oldest (12) just "graduated" from AWANA's and this summer my baby will turn 4. In 5 years, I know our house, and life, will look much different. We'll have 3 teenagers and 2 tweens, drivers, busy(ier) schedules and less time together as a family. I don't even want to think about the 10 year picture!!

These comments have had me thinking and then the other day as I tried to teach my daughter about poetry, I came across a poem I'd written when our oldest was our only child. You can read those words and then I'll share some new thoughts....

You hear a new Mom say,
“She sleeps thru the night,
sits by herself and patty cakes, too,
she’s growing up so fast.”
But the Mom who’s been there before says,
“That’s what you raise them for.”

A young Mom says,
“He can ride a bike,
tie his shoes & write the ABC’s,
he’s growing up so fast.”
Again, the Mom reminds her,
“That’s what you raise them for.”

Time goes by and she says,
“Now she can drive by herself,
plays on the team and babysits.
She’s growing up so fast.”
But she remembers,
“That’s what you raise them for.”

A few years pass and she says,
“He’s been to the prom,
had senior pictures and is visiting colleges.
He’s growing up so fast.”
But again she hears,
“That’s what you raise them for.”

Time marches on and she says,
“She graduated from college,
was married and will soon be a Mom.
She grew up so fast.”
But her mom reminds her,
“That’s what you raise them for.”

Years go by and you hear her say,
“She did so much for me –
listened to my troubles,
cheered at my success and
led me to the Lord.
She’s gone too fast.”
But then she heard God say,
“That’s what I raise them for.”

A day or two after reading this poem again, I heard a program on the radio talking about "Growing Kingdom Kids"...how as Christians that should be a parenting goal for all of us. It's a great goal and one I'd say I have, but as my mind continued to work, I wondered, "How do I achieve this?"

Honestly, God's plans and purposes for our kids are so much different than the worlds! He longs for them to do so much more than stay busy, learn things and win trophies. Granted that may be part of the process, but it can't be the priority. My children must learn to tie their shoes and drive the car; chances are some of them will go to prom and play on the team, but if they are rushing from one season to the next and living to go from one milestone to the next, I'm not doing my job.

Ultimately they are God's children and He's given me the responsibility to raise them up. And if you're a Mom that's your job too! So let me ask you, "What are you raising them for?' Do you prioritize getting good grades, being a great student and landing a wonderful career? Or do you focus on them making the team, winning the scholarship and being a success? Are you raising them to be a good friend, a responsible citizen and loving person? Or are you raising them to love the Lord, serve Him and share Him?

Friend, I think we all know the right answer to the questions, but do our actions match up with our answer? It's easy to say we want to raise Godly kids who impact the kingdom and make an eternal difference, but it's harder to do it. As my kids grow I know this is going to get more challenging...when it comes time to choose between church and sports what will we do? (Which will happen next month when VBS and softball overlap.) When it's time to let go and give them freedom will they see me fret and worry or pray and find peace? When life gets busy, will we make time for family devotions?

I can look ahead and wonder all I want, but that doesn't do much good, but doing something now is what will be productive. Friend, regardless of the age of your children there is something we can do to play a part in raising them up to be the one God created them to be! We can pray and live out our faith. Remember "More is caught than taught" and "Children learn what they live and will one day live what they learn!!"

Friend, if you are like me and long to raise your kids up for more than what this world offers, I'd love to hear your heart - what excites you about this challenge? What scares you? How do you do it? And I know I have friends further ahead in the journey who are doing a wonderful job, what's your advice? How do (did) you do it? How do you prioritize faith and the disciplines that come with it without being legalistic and creating bitterness which causes kids to push away - not just from you, but God?

As we raise the little people we are responsible for may we remember we are a child God is raising...O Lord, help us be children who are quick to obey, willing to draw close and always trust our perfect Parent. One specific promise we can cling to is found in Proverbs 22:6, "Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it."

From One Mom To Another

Friend, as a Mom I know life is busy and it can get real crazy. I have 5 kids, I get it. We are constantly hearing, "Mom" and being pulled in countless different directions. When they are asleep we still have work to do and even when my head hits the pillow my mind keeps working. Some days it (the laundry, the cooking, the cleaning, the praying, the refereeing, the teaching, the practices, the mothering...) never ends.

I'm about to admit one of my brain dead moments - tonight as I prepared supper, I remembered to fill the salt shaker...but I forgot that when you turn it upside down the salt comes out as fast as you put it in. I'm sorry to say it took longer for me to realize this than it should have. Honestly, I was quite disappointed in myself, but as I watched the salt run out it was as if God spoke to my heart.

Sometimes life drains me faster than the salt ran through my shaker. As I thought about this, I found myself reflecting on my recent quiet times. Once again I'm sorry to admit this - these times haven't been as productive as they could and should be. I've been reading my Bible and praying, but just like I was distracted tonight when I filled the salt shaker, I haven't been completely focused.

Distractions are a given in a home with 5 kids under the age of 12, but that's no excuse. God created me to have a relationship with Him and if I want that relationship to grow, I need to invest in it. I need to be intentional. I need to make time to be still. (Psalms 46:10) I need to practice self-discipline (something God has given - see 2 Timothy 1:7) and get up earlier than I already do.

If something doesn't change, I'll keep doing to my heart what I did to my salt shaker. Everything I pour in will come out as fast as it goes in. If I'm going to serve my family, and the others God brings across my path, I need to have something to give. I must drink of the living water. (John 4:14) I must live out John 15:5 - "I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing."

Friend, abiding takes time, effort and sacrifice. Abiding comes with a price, but it also brings a profit. As a Mom I know my work never ends, but often my energy does. I also know my work is important, but I've been reminded the most important job I have is to fill myself up so that God can pour me out.

I don't want my life to look like the salt I saw flowing through the shaker earlier this evening. Do you? If your answer is no, join me in finding a way to plug the holes...let's fight through the distractions, die to our self and feed our spirit. Now as my family sleeps, I see my salt shaker on the table...it's no longer empty, but full, ready to be used tomorrow. May it be the same for me. And you.

Thoughts on Waiting

Hello Friends! If you stopped by because you read my devotion today over at Encouragement Cafe, WELCOME!   So glad you are here! It's a joy to share a bit of my heart there today! If you'd like to read my devotion, "What To Do In The Wait" click HERE. 

As I reflected on the words I wrote about waiting, I had a new thought...better yet revisited an old one. There are times I, and you, must wait on God, but I know there are times I've used that as an excuse. So I pray if you're in the waiting room of life my Encouragement Cafe devotion encourages you, but if God is calling you to action may the words below motivate you to take a step of faith. 

From August 2014 - 
A few months back we were in the midst of potty training with our 5th child and there were moments I wondered if it would ever be over! Now that it's behind me, God has been reminding me of a frustrating phrase my little guy used all the time.

For the longest time, Jesse wanted NOTHING to do with potty training. So much so that anytime we mentioned going to the bathroom, he'd simply respond with 2 year old confidence, "I do that tomorrow." After awhile, even Jed, our 4 year old would say, "Today is tomorrow!!"

We've had a child, sometimes two, in diapers for 11 years and I was ready to be done, so my little Jesse man was trying my patience and again proving he is a unique individual. One night in the midst of my frustration, God simply whispered to my heart, "You do that too."

Friend, I didn't even have to ask, "What?" I knew, I'd been telling God the same thing. He'd been leading me to do something and now as that leading, and a few new ones, continue, He's reminding me of progress. Jesse's, not mine. I haven't changed a diaper in over 3 months...once my little guy was ready and made up his mind, potty training really was a breeze.

God has been encouraging me to learn a lesson from my little man...He's telling me I'm ready, now I need to just make up my mind, decide to obey and discipline myself to do it. Friend, we are told to wait upon the Lord - Isaiah 40:31 says, "But they that wait upon the Lord will renew their strength..."and Psalm 27:14 says, "Wait for the LORD, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." I know waiting can be hard, but I'll be honest and admit sometimes I use that for an excuse.

Two of these "things" God is leading me to do have been confirmed time and again, but yet I wait...not for Him, but me and that philosophy is backwards. I am not to make God wait on me!! And neither are you!

Is there something God is asking you to do? A step He's leading you to take? Please don't respond like me or my son and say, "I'll do that tomorrow." Like my other little guy says, "Today is tomorrow!!" Friend, will you join me in taking action now! Walking in obedience can be scary and hard, but it is good and right and something God always blesses!!

Today let's think about this - "Now listen you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city and spend a year there, carry on business and make money. Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes." James 4:13-14

Friend, tomorrow is not guaranteed, so do what you need to do today!!

Feeding Lambs

My children are the proud owners of 3 orphan lambs, which we have been bottle feeding for nearly 3 weeks. Typically the kids take care of all the chores, but the other day I mixed up the milk replacer and a thought hit me. These lambs drink the same thing everyday...morning and night. (Oh wouldn't life be easier if my kids did the same!?!) As that thought ran through my mind the story of Jesus talking to Peter about feeding lambs and caring for sheep entered my mind.

Now God has never had this conversation with me, but I believe He created you and me to do the same...care for His people, love them and guide them. You may not be a Sunday School teacher or Bible study leader, but friend I pray you still take a few minutes to read these words because regardless of our titles, we still impact others and can share Truth. You may not live on a farm, but you can feed sheep!!

So how do we feed sheep? That's a good question! There are countless things we can do for people and numerous words we can share with them, but today let's focus on the thing that feeds our faith...God's Word. Friends, "the Word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and spirit, of joints and marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart." (Hebrews 4:12) "All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work." (2 Timothy 3:16-17)

The milk our little lambs drink day after day, seems simple, maybe even insignificant, but yet it is vital. Without this milk replacer our lambs would not survive. Friend, when the one you love is hurting or in need do you feel like simply sharing the Word isn't enough? Like it's too simple? Read the verses above to be reminded of the power it holds. With His Word, God spoke the world into creation, with that same Word He can transform hearts, minds and lives. It has power. It is enough.

As I mixed up the powder and water, my mind raced and my heart was convicted. All too often I forget and downplay the spiritual, nutritious value of the Scriptures. Day after day it's what I need and my loved ones do too. Every feeding our little lambs eagerly approach the gate for the meal that never changes, but always sustains...oh to do the same!

Over the last couple of weeks I've found myself thinking about this and my thoughts center around two different situations...first of all let's think about when we are sharing the Word. Like I said earlier, you don't need a special, important title to think about this...any and all followers of Christ can and should share God's Word. Friend, sharing God's holy, powerful Word is not something we should take lightly. We must remember a few key Scriptures ourselves -

"Do not add to His words, or He will rebuke you and prove you a liar." (Proverbs 30:6)

"And if anyone takes words away from this scroll of prophecy, God will take away from that person any share in the tree of life and in the Holy City, which are described in this scroll." (Revelation 22:19)

"And my message and my preaching were not in persuasive words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power." (1 Corinthians 2:4)

"For we did not follow cleverly devised tales when we made known to you the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but we were eyewitnesses of His majesty." (2 Peter 1:16)

"For Christ did not send me to baptize, but to preach the Gospel, not in cleverness of speech, so that the cross of Christ would not be made void." (1 Corinthians 1:17)

On the flip side, it's also important to think about those who feed us the Word. Who do you count on to feed you in a spiritual sense? Do they provide you with what you need? Do they present you with the pure Word of God? The whole Truth? What are their motives? Do they tickle your ears?

I am grateful for a pastor and Bible teacher/friend who take the job of feeding lambs seriously and do it well. I pray I won't just be nourished by their actions, but can learn from them and follow their example too.

Friend, the Word of God, is something we must handle with care. As we use it to feed the ones we love, may we remember one last lesson from my lambs...a shepherd never worries about entertaining his sheep. He feeds them, cares for them and loves them, but doesn't focus on keeping them amused. At times it seems that is a danger in our society today, but it's not something God, our shepherd, ever discusses. Though we may be tempted to please or even charm others, let us not forget it's God's Word that holds the power, not our delivery.

Today, as the Lord's lamb, I pray you are fed the most nourishing meal there is! And today as a "shepherd" yourself, I pray you are able to feed the ones you love!