Well, today is my birthday. Typically, I'm not one to announce that, but I guess with Facebook and 5 children it's no longer a secret!! And honestly, this year it's something God is leading me to address here.
Growing up, I loved my birthday pretty much like every child, but as a teen and adult I was pretty much OK with nobody knowing. I didn't want to be the center of attention and got embarrassed when I was singled out.
I clearly remember one birthday nearly 10 years ago...it was a Sunday and at church everyone sang to me. I wanted to hide behind my young son, but he was too busy running around. Later that day, my brother-in-law was joking with me about turning red and I said, "I don't know why everyone has to make such a big deal out of this." His response? "Jill, we love you and want you to know."
He made a simple statement, but one that was quite powerful! I still think about it when others start to sing the birthday song. For years, I called this behavior humility, but 5 or 6 years ago I realized it's really insecurity. And friend, as Susie Larson says, "Insecurity is a form of selfishness."
So fast forward to this year...just yesterday on the eve of turning 38, a situation took place that revealed I STILL struggle with insecurity, doubt and thinking I really don't matter. Granted I've made progress, but I have a ways to go.
And today, I want to share two resources that have helped me that I plan to revisit in the year to come. I also want to give you an opportunity to win one of them for yourself!
Last week I was walking through a time of frustration and feeling the attack of the enemy...instantly a friend came to mind, who I assumed could be in a similar situation and I thought, "I should pray for her!" Then God quietly whispered to my heart, "Perhaps you should pray for yourself!"
So, so true! I understand the need for that, but I don't always take the time to do it. But it's important and honestly it's not selfish or prideful. Actually it's just the opposite...going before our mighty God takes humility and God will keep our heart pure! So with that story, the first resource I want to share is Julie Gillies' book, "Prayers for a Women's Soul." You can learn more about it HERE. This is a book that has helped me and I trust it would bless you as well.
I realize my struggle with insecurity is something I will never conquer on my own, but I know God has helped me takes steps to overcome this. One big way He helps is by teaching me through His Word. Today I'm excited about a book that is being released that will lead us to the Bible. Wendy Blight's new study, "Living So That" is one that God will speak through to transform us from the inside out. You can learn more about it HERE.
So friend, today on my birthday I want to thank you for the gift you are to me. I appreciate you joining me here as we journey through life and walk in faith. I value the time you give up to read my thoughts and your encouraging comments mean more than you could know. Thank you!! I'd love to share the resources I've mentioned above, so leave a comment sharing which one you'd choose and your email for a chance to win! Then stop back on Friday when I'll be sharing a devotion at The Encouragement Cafe and announcing the winner.
Finally, a verse to close our time together. It's one of the first ones I read today and as I get older I thought it was quite appropriate!! But more than that I appreciate the wisdom it holds...I hope you do too!! "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18